Hey man, I've been following your work for a few years, and I just want to say that everything is going to be okay. You're incredibly talented and excel at your craft. Take this experience and learn from it. I'm generally not an optimist in matters like this, but losing enough teaches you to learn from your mistakes and roll with the punches. There's always a way out. Stay strong, keep making art, keep your soul alive; don't let that die. Because that's all we really have, isn't it?
Hahaha thanks bro. I will definitely keep myself strong and let my soul live.
I’m sick now, feel myself getting weaker. This was the time or part she would call to see of I was better. Stay with me till I fall asleep because I couldnt. She’d look after me, and tell me things about her day while I listened. But that’s not happening anymore. None of that will.
Is "Roger" an alter ego of yours? I wish I could get to know you; you seem like such a wonderful person.
"Roger" is a name that was given to me by my ex. You can say its my alter ego. Its the part of me thats was loving and caring and is "all in". The part of me that would put everything on the line to make her happy and safe. Its just a name she calls me while I call her by her other name. But thanks for the compliment.
Please don't do anything to harm yourself. Toxic things in life are hard, I know; but please know that there are brighter things out there.
There are brighter things out there. I know that. but the negatives I carry, the regrets and pains out weight the brighter things. There a lot of things I thought I can do to make things right, but it ends up becoming worse.
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything. They said that I need to take that certain person out of the equation, and things from there on will be easier. But its hard. I can’t do that, I won’t do it. Instead I’ll take myself out of the equation, It’ll make life a lot easier. There will be no more pain and stress for that person or for anyone else. Some will be hurt. but thats where I belong. There is nothing for me here.
She told me she just wants to be friends, she didn’t want 2 months of falling for each other before i leave and leave her sad. I completely understand that. I think i just see it differently. For me, I think I want to have as the least amount regrets in life as i can. In my head, I’m dying to give…
The last couple of days. even they were short, even though I screwed up a lot.But I got to see her again and spend time with her. It was worth the stress the risk I put myself into and the pain I’ll feel.
I don’t know if you’ll ever come across this. Thank you for everything. I know what I need to do. I talked to Boon already and now I understand why you did those things. I’m going away now to become my own Batman, I’ll see you around after I finish my training and become a better person.
I got two shoots tomorrow back to back. Im nervous, scared at the same time. My best friend is there with me to be creative director, i got a good team on deck. my mind is so scattered. Why am i sad thats the question, I stressed so much today just to get things done and ready. I’m tired. It’s pretty lonely where I am. But count down 5 days till I get to leave and escape from this place. I wish you can wish me luck, I think if its just you I’d feel more calm.